So I have a confession to make…
I did not watch the Golden Globes. I know I know, horrible wanna be actor EVER!!
The main reason I didn’t watch it was because our TV channels weren’t working, but I was able to keep up with the highlights on Facebook and Twitter. I do have to admit sometimes when I watch those shows I get jealous. A lot of people do when they watch famous people walk around with their fancy dresses and beautiful jewelry. But that’s not what I’m looking those things, I honestly don’t care about those things.
I want to act.
I want to be on the big screen, I want to feel the rush of acting in front of a camera with other talented people around me. I want to play dress up and play a different person, step into someone else’s shoes, see what they see, think what they think.
When I was younger I used to think what was the use of trying? Why did I even bother trying to do something that didn’t look like it was going to happen? Senior year of high school, I got the acting but once freshman year of college came around, I got discouraged and stopped thinking about my dream and tried pursuing other things that I liked but didn’t enjoy doing as much. My college seemed to only believe in people who had real talent, I auditioned for a few parts but never got anything, when I looked who was in the final cast, they were people that were either an acting major or minor or someone I knew who was switching their major because they were convinced by a professor. I couldn’t stand it.
Junior year of college, I got into a play that was outside of my school, I couldn’t have been happier. I had the best time and I wanted to keep acting over and over again. Once I graduated I wanted to pursue acting, but then I realized I needed to make enough money to support my new family.
Basically now, after seeing the highlights from the Golden Globes, I caught a small acting bug again. I know now I’m just chasing dreams and being patient as to what the plan is, but chasing none the less.
Hopefully I will catch it soon.