I just put Olivia down for a nap and decided to write a little something on this special day. I woke up this morning pretty sore. MJ decided late last night to show off her dancing skills and she enjoyed it so much, she did it all night. My whole body is starting to feel the pregnancy cramps and pains. Since Olivia was breeched, I don’t know what a “normal” feeling of a baby in your belly. So these are all new feelings for me and it can be a little overwhelming sometimes.
As I was laying in bed trying to muster the energy to get out of it and go get Olivia, I heard her making her morning noises and talking to her animals my mind wandered to where we were last year. One year ago today, I slowly walked into Olivia’s room at Children’s Hospital Los Angeles. I took my usual spot right by Olivia’s bed. The nurse with us that day came and asked if I wanted to hold her. I could hardly hold back tears, after 12 days I finally got to hold my baby. Myke raced from work a few hours later to hold her and I think he had a hard time letting her go just like I did.
So even though I’m sore and want nothing more to lay down and rest, I’m forever thankful that we are where we are now. I rocked her a little longer today for nap.