Monday is here again and I really hope this week treats me better than last week. One of my closest friend’s at work left and I took over her position. For those of you who don’t know me personally, I have been working in the human resource department at Paramount Pictures, now I am helping out the Talent Acquisition team. I’m still considered part time even though I work full time. That wasn’t the worse that happened. On Wednesday, I started to feel this pain in my stomach, Thursday the feeling was stronger. I didn’t feel like eating and I didn’t miss eating-that’s what worried me. Friday through Saturday we went on our church’s leadership retreat. I had an amazing time and I truly learned and experienced God’s presence during the weekend, but my stomach thing (as we called it) wasn’t going away. I didn’t get sleep Thursday or Friday and neither did poor Myke, mostly because of me keeping it up. On Myke’s side, he worked his butt off at work and for the weekend and since he was so tired he snored like a mad man. So we woke each other up constantly. We were so out of sync it felt strange.

Yesterday we stayed home from church because Myke felt sick and I still wasn’t back to myself. I always feel bad when I miss church, it feels like a part of my week isn’t complete. I watched the live stream that we have at church and I did some reading on my own, but I just felt so heavy and not myself. I don’t like feeling sick for this reason. I just want to feel like myself again.

Something that does make me feel better is filling my mind with the positive message. I listen to my music and I read my book. I have started to reread Crazy Love written by Francis Chan. He is a church planter in Southern California and spoke many times when I was in college. I’ve been working on having a book to read that will help me with my future in the church. Crazy Love will help  and it is the first book of a long list of books that I have made. Here are a few of the other ones:

When I Lay My Issac Down: Unshakable Faith in Unthinkable Circumstances by Carol Kent

Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World: Finding Intimacy with God in the Busyness of Life by Joanna Weaver

Bread and Wine: A Love Letter to Life Around the Table with Recipes by Shauna Niequist

I have a few other ones, if anyone else is interested and my list is continuing to grow with suggestions. Let me know if you have any!